I hope, it will be the last time. I cry.

Must we fight each time we talk? Im so sick and tired of it. Cant we be like normal friends, even normal friends dont fight as much as we do. Sigh, why cant we return back to the past and not becoming a couple. Why must i fall in love with you deeply, after all those crapped that leave scars on each other heart. You are able to let go, jus why cant i? Whats wrong with me, i hate seeing myself now. I hate it, i want to let go of you, but why is it so hard? Im tired, very tired. Last time, each time whenever we break. I slashed, but now. I quitted, slash, smoke, drink. What can i fucking do now to fucking forget about you? I hate being in the same school with you. I hate being in a same class with you, its seriously so hard to treat you like a transparent stuffs. So hard.. So hardd, God! Rewind back to Pri5 times? Make me get an accident and jus like change my whole damn fucking life. I hate my attitude. I wanna change, soon.. Real soon, lord. I tired, but no one believe. I quit smoke, no one believe too. All you all believe was jus im a bad girl, who smokes, love to scold vulgar, a slutty, bitchy , whatever shitzxc you all can lable me as. Why? Im tired, fuckmylife. __