Four letter, L.O.V.E or O.V.E.R?

I shall blog about my feelings. I realise, it has been 59 days since we last broke. I realise, from that day onwards I had been lying to myself that I'm over you. Lying to everyone around me that I'm over you.. Lying to everybody. I'm sorry bitch, i broke your promise since you once broke mine. Fair nao. I can't be happy, it isn't me.. I don't like lying to myself bout' my feelings, sometimes. I really wanna be alone. I don't like telling anyone how I feel, because, you never will understand me.. This is my life, my attitude.. I'm sorry.. I miss you.. I miss you alot.. :( But no matter what, your heart belong to her. I never be yours anymore. I lost a chance, and there isn't any second chance anymore.. I'm sucha a failure.. Seriously, I only know how to treasure stuff after I lost it.. I'm so tired of missing you.. I hate love, :( I hate you, :( no, I love you.. :(